may-ellen:

You know when you’re tail-tangled-tongue-tied constantly-stuttering-stupid crazy about someone, but you literally can’t speak a word of it to anyone but your best friends because it could destroy so many things, so all you can do is see them and try and be normal and not turn into a breathless fumbling mess when you speak to them, but you can’t help it so they probably think you’re crazy because you’ll be listening to them talk and then your eyes just get way too big and you start breathing really fast and shallow and you have to just giggle nervously because there’s nothing else to do? Yeah…. me too. 

the actual worst.