may-ellen:

 I have a constantly expanding list of people that have my heart. The ties grow stronger every day, and I’ve never been happier to pour myself into relationships. I’m trying to be better to my family, because I’m not as present in their lives as I should be.

 I’ve had so many amazing days and nights with my friends, driving, singing, laughing, listening to music, talking about anything and everything. I love letting my friends know how much they mean to me. Cooking meals together, trying new restaurants, watching movies, playing games, praying together, supporting each other in everything we do. Being there when they need me, and vice versa. I love all of the new people I’ve met and grown closer to, and I love the old friends I’ve actually gotten to know. I’ve never been so glad to lose sleep before. I want to thank God wholeheartedly, because I know he is the fount from which all blessings flow. He’s given me some beautiful things, and I want to show him how I appreciate that. He knows exactly what I need. I’ve always been a tenderhearted person, always been adventurous, outgoing, constantly craving laughter and companionship and He’s put me in a place in my life where people in my life have needs that I can fill with those characteristics, being a caretaker of sorts. Loving and supporting, pushing and encouraging, or just listening. I want the guys’ band to succeed, in that they gain more and more opportunities to spread the word of God doing what they love. They’re some lovely men, and I’m glad I get to spend so much time with them. I adore their hearts, and they’ve reminded me of what to look for. They’re teaching me a lot. I’ve never woken up on the floor to the sound of four people snoring and been so happy. I want my two little sisters, Liz and Emily, to have a complete hot mess of a summer. I want them to be free as birds, and have more fun than they ever have in their entire lives. I want God to give them peace about the plans he has for their futures, because it’s going to be gnarly. Let them enjoy being young and free and live for him. I want all of my friends to pursue their passions without worry of the gains they can make. 

 So anyway, this goes out to my friends. If any of you see this, know that I love you with my whole heart and I’m so, so happy you’re in my life. Thank you for putting up with my obnoxious laugh, my mouth like a sailor, my inability to remember directions, and all of the other things that make me me but are a pain in the ass. I want to know you better, push and pull you towards the savior, and have more adventures with you. 

guys, my friends are a big group of homos and i love every single one of them to death and yeah i might be crying shut up so what